about

AuOSDD (Diagnosed) | 21+ | Medicated

Tired of the internet, looking for something more stable. Choosing to make my own world instead. Is it healthy? No. Do I care? Also no. Regardless, welcome to the page. That's all you're really getting from me otherwise. Technically it doesn't really matter anyways, I'll probably forget over and over due to the OSDD until I remember and come back. It's how it always ends up happening anyways. My goal with this is to track at least something, anything to keep myself feeling more in control and stabilized. Anyways, make yourself comfortable and enjoy this janky website. Trying to keep it text heavy as opposed to graphic heavy, hope you enjoy reading and long prose about nothing in particular except potential existentialism as I age.

why neocities?

While there's a ton of limitations with Neocities honestly, I just like the idea of building my own little world from scratch so that I can try to recover myself. Put the pieces back together as it were. As this website builds my hope is that I can use it as a means of rebuilding my life in person. The goal being to focus less on social media, and more on the creation of using the Internet as a means of Connection. Not for fame, fortune, or really anything of the sort to draw attention. Rather, I like being in the shadows. I like just existing and creating. I like being hidden and scratching at the surface itch of my creativity, and the thought of eyes on something I create scares me. Ironic considering my profession. But I digress.

what's with the japanese?

You'll notice some Japanese here and there, a lot of it is because it gives me a sense of connection and safety that I lost a long time ago. The Internet was always a place that I could go to be weird, watching anime and ingesting doujins, playing VNs and just being happy. It helped me cope with a serious amount of trauma. The Japanese that you see isn't meant to be stylistic, it's a means of giving me a sense of comfort in this world that I'm building. That being said, I speak English primarily and Japanese conversationally. I'm also fairly fluent in Spanish, primarily Cuban and "International" dialect.